Where do I go from here?

I thought we would make it through this.
I thought we had time.

I felt in my heart of hearts that we belonged together. That this was temporary. That somehow our love would see us through.

But now he's leaving. He's just going to take off. I was always supportive and understood that he didn't want to stay in this city. I was on board to move. I just didn't want to leave everyone hanging at work.

I don't know what to do.
I don't know how to be happy.

How can I hope to meet someone else?
How can that even be a thought I'm having?


I never cared for more than a few days when someone broke up with me. I either had a moment of guilt or felt hurt because it was always my fault. Now I know it's not and there's nothing I can do.

I want to be angry and hate everything but I loved too deeply and felt too comfortable and secure to feel anything other than hurt and lost.