I move a lot

The second talk with the loan adviser at the bank didn't go well. The 140K he calculated on the phone turned into just 118K. That's not going to get me anything good in any decent area. There's a hilarious house in Hillyard that has a pink kitchen and bright blue living room. But Hillyard is... literally the wrong side of the tracks. That's where the old train yard is. Lots of local history there but the city doesn't budget anything for its infrastructure so everything is just slowly crumbling.

I don't know. I'm just kind of frustrated with my living situation. There's not much I can do. My roommate owns this house so if she lets things get bad it's not really my job to fix that. I'm just slowly taking back all my things I feel aren't being respected. Like my rug. It's a kitchen runner and wasn't cheap, it doesn't belong on the front porch, dammit.

Living alone is bad for my mental health but I don't think my sister would rent a place with me and I've been with my boyfriend for less than a month so living together isn't an idea right now. Besides he doesn't even have a bed at his apartment.

If 2020 doesn't look brighter I am seriously considering making the move to Canada. I'll just go for Thanksgiving and never come back. BF can come if we can still stand each other. If not I was doing pretty good with the ladies of Calgary's Tinder. I'll find me a wife.